A Musing on Ego and Healing (unfiltered)

What if the ego voice is really a reaction to trauma? And that's why it's not very effective to solve deep patterns at the level of ego maintenance. Because simply interacting with ego brings you to its level which is not a place of love and healing. It's only when we take a step back (or deeper) outside of our thinking minds that we access a more powerful potential for change, where the roots can get dug up and new seeds can get planted.

In a similar vein, trying to change your life by changing your thoughts is a very inefficient way to improve your life at deep foundational levels. (The exception being for those working at a fine-tuning level, or who are adept at using thoughts as a gateway to  examine deeper beliefs and core wounds. But most of us are not there yet.) 

For those of us with early developmental core wounding running a lot of the show, working at the level of thought is like trying to stop a car rolling down a hill when it’s already two thirds of the way down. By the time an experience gets to the conscious thought level, there’s already so much momentum in the form of emotions and body/subconscious memories, that just telling yourself something is OK is not going to be convincing to a body that is in fight or flight mode.

I believe this is why somatic healing, which focuses on mindfulness of the body is so effective. It teaches you to become aware at an earlier stage of the process, at the physical level where it picks up more subtle signals before they become conscious as thoughts, before the momentum gets going. 

Another way of looking at it, without having to make a distinction between mind and body (it’s hard to say where one ends and the other begins), is just that resolving patterns is about becoming more aware and mindful of little details going on inside you, about slowing everything down, about catching that rolling car sooner. And focusing on the body is a technique to help you do that.